The Bean’s bean #1
Well, it would appear I have ended up doing one of these, with the intention of sharing some stuff that I have inside the tornado of my mind (maybe from all the windmills, not sure there.)
With the exhibition up for a month in Utopia, I cannot help but feel proud of finally going ahead with something that I really wasn’t sure would stick. There is something very raw about putting yourself in some form onto paper for everyone to share at, sometimes with good eyes and thoughts and other times with a sort of odd judgment as if it mattered.
…. And it sort of does because I have yet gained the ability to feel truly satisfied with my work. I mean, I do and have with ‘Open For Business’ which is something of a collection of stuff from a few years but I have only put it up at request of those who like and follow me around (on socials not as a stalker) which again is lovely. I’m proud of it- a new feeling to the stuff I make but as a lot of people I feel agree; if you create, you cannot stop. It just keeps going and keeps happening, so make it count.
hopefully, I’ll feel as proud about the release of the second poetry book as I do this first exhibition. Not saying I didn’t feel proud of the first book but with the first of many things, it’s hard to have anything to compare it to. I guess I am proud that I told myself I would do something and I did it so there is that. It can’t be so bad as I have collided enough for a second. As always funds of the crucial ingredients to make this cake perfect- The cake of creativity (I would like to think it was lemon drizzle)
Doing an art. Love to Utopia Cafe- Southend for being amazing, as always.
Some I was reminded of that I found very inspiring recently, were the words of a very good friend of mine who is sadly not with us:
“It doesn’t matter what you do, just do it”
When I get to times of constantly overthinking and over analysing (as you do when you have a bit of the old neuro divergent) I tried to keep this little saying at the back pocket for when I need to pull it out and flash it to the world. The only problem with going onwards and upwards is that your legs get tired very quickly. I guess over time they will get strong with though…
